Fight to Thrive

I know I'll always survive. I know, No matter what I do or whatever comes my way, I'll always survive. It doesn't matter what struggles that have and will come this way. Struggles against myself, struggles against others, struggles to fit in, struggles to feel at home, struggle of being alone, struggles to feel sane, struggles to be somebody in a world that expects you to be nothing but trash. But I hope, in the near future. Some of my friends and family and myself, who are always struggling, always suffering, always with a bad stroke of luck, for once are able to thrive and find the happiness they're lookin for. I'll always keep fighting. And for those of you who want to give up, throw in the towel because you have no more strength to move on. Find that will to take that emptyness in your heart, your sorrow, your anger, dig deep in your roots to turn nothing, into something. For everyone who is going through a hard time in your life, this is for you. Stay strong, and fight to thrive.

Falla yo Dreams!

Big Days ahead! Reunions, and random thoughts!

Hey everyone,

          I got up pretty early this morning because I didn't sleep too good.  Although I should finish getting off book for a project I'm working on, I thought I blog some more.   One of the purposes of this blog is to detail my memories of these next few years so that I can look back and go "Man...good times," but there are a lot of scary events that are or has been developing in the world in the last few years.  While I could go on forever about how the government is useless and held by power hungry politicians who are completely not in the people's best interest and are stomping on our rights as human beings, I won't.  I will simply say that get informed on the issues,  complain, and spread the word.  

While the world around me starts falling apart, you can't help but feel like you are on a time limit on achieving the goals that you want to achieve on your life.   One of the goals on my list is to really keep in contact with my Family in New York.   As of now, it has been nonexistent for a lot of reasons.   But as the world is crumbling at a quicker rate and while I'll endure all those hardships on my own,  I really don't want to fight through these times alone.   So I'm going to New York to audition for grad school and while that is real important to me,  getting in touch with my cousins and other family members are becoming just as important to me as well.  My Cousin who is about my age is having a daughter.  A freaking daughter man!?  Thats fucking mind blowing to me that time went by so fast.   A part of me feels like I'm lost in the past cause I feel like my cousins are moving towards the future, and I'm in my room playing with puppets.   As they say however, You are where you are in life.  Besides, I wouldn't want a kid right now.   Not that I don't ever want to be a father, because you always want a legacy, but I dunno, I would just fuck it up.  It doesn't help that the future seems dark rather than light, and while I know my kid would survive, because our family are survivors, I would want him or her....(Preferably him)  to have it better than I did.

In any case I'm pretty excited to see my family.  I'm looking forward to seeing everyone!

Why life in the theater?

Hey Everyone,  Happy New Year!


It's been a while.  I've been a mixture between lazy, busy, and inattentive towards putting my next blog because I really didn't want to blog for the sake of blogging.  I wanted to talk about something important to my heart and I figure I talk about why I want to do theater...I am also breaking two birds with one stone because I need to turn in my Application to Yale tonight SOOOOOO.... Lets get started.

I am seeking admission to the MFA Acting Program to Yale because I believe that I am prepared to take full advantage of the training opportunities offered by Yale to prepare me for the professional world. Growing up as a young Puerto Rican in the Bronx, moving to the west coast, gives me an appreciation for the diverse cultures and stories that constitute the American experience. My experiences in the Bronx form a part of my earliest and fondest memories, and continue to influence my direction in life. Where I once observe life, I now find myself fully engaged as a performing artist, collaborator and storyteller.

I have participated in many theatrical productions sponsored by the Theater Arts department at the Community College and University I attend. In my first stage performance, I played the character of Lawrence in For Whom the Southern Belle Tolls, a one-act play written by American playwright Christopher Durang. I nearly had a panic attack on opening night, wondering if I truly had the ability and talent to perform. As Lawrence, I sought to convey to the audience the feelings and identity of the shy, sensitive son overwhelmed by the world around him. As it turns out, it was I who was overwhelmed by the positive audience feedback and support. After that night, there was no doubt in my mind that I wanted to pursue a career in drama and acting.

I ask myself why I wanted to invest three years of my life in training instead of auditioning straight away, I knew the reasons, but it is something that I could not articulate until recently. There are two reasons; the first reason is that I wish to learn more about myself. I believe with the tools provided by Yale University, can give me the tools to combat these phases of bad habits and turn those into good habits. The second reason is that I love the idea of unity.   Theater is the only realm in which true unity exists.  You need Directors, Lighting Designers, Stage Managers, Producers, Playwrights and Technical crews to work the puzzle together to create a powerful story that affects the audience.  The lessons in the theater help reveal to everyone who we are, and more importantly help us become who we strive to be. I hope to gain the ability to articulate the lessons I learn in Acting and pass them on.  If we can work together in creating a story, then there is hope for everyone to coexist in this world too.

As a performing artist, I believe that theater and the arts are essential elements of our ongoing education and development as a global society. My commitment to Acting and the arts form a core part of the person I am today, and of the person I hope to become. Through the arts, I believe that we can continually enhance our communities by engaging people in creative works and activities that require untold imagination, commitment and courage.